saat gue datang gue hanya perpikir positif, gue cuma mau dengeri firman Tuhan dan mau berkumpul bersama saudara seiman. tapi kenapa semua niat baik gue itu diakhir dengan rasa dongkol luarbuasa dan biar TUHAN saja yang membalas semua ini. AMIEN!
Entah apa yang salah sama gue, saat gue masuk dgn sukacita koq kayanya ada yang aneh yah. yups! ANEH! koq gue ngerasa kaya ada DISKRIMINASI sosial yaah?? hanya karena gue dtg sama temen gue yang emang bule..
dari saat ambil makanan, gue ga boleh ngeliat PORK, dan temen gue bisa seenaknya buka2 tuh LUCNH BOX..
akhirnya gue ambil yang seafood dan tuh org (entah siapa namanya) bilang " can i see ur meal?" . dlm hai cuma hei come on!! this is from u, this ur picking up for me, right? why u want to see again?? are u not see seafood in ur lunch box before yet?
dan pembicaraan dimulai...
dia: what ur name?
me: im Melisa.
dia: where do u come from?
me: indonesia.
dia: do u know JESUS before?
me: what r u talking about? whats ur means?
dia: ya! told to u, do u know JESUS before?
me: of course! why?
dia: u know what?
me: what ur meaning of? i dont undersand?
dia: bcos some people come here just bcos here have a lunch box nd we can sing together.
me: what d;meaning of? im CHRISTIAN! whats wrong with me if im indonesian? dont u know indonesia not about MOSLEM nd TERORISM! i proud of my country!! whtas wrong with me?
dia: r u chiristian?
me: yups! of course! *rasanya mau ngejitak*
dia: *bingung cuma cengo*
me: hei! whats wrong with u? r u OK!!
dia: *berusaha ngalihin pembicaraan* so how long u will stay here..
me: one year. why u see me like have something wrong with me? do u think. all of indonesia people are moslem? hei! come on! opened ur mind nd see it!!
dia: nd wanna back to ur country.. *tetep ga peduli sama kata2gue*
me: *udah ga respect nd malas jawab jg* YA!
dia: do u not think to take ur bachelor here too?
me: HAH!! ya! i thinking wannat take my MASTER here!
dia: MASTER? R U HAVE BEEN FINISHED UR BACHELOR? *kaget*
me: yups! whats wrong?? something seems wrong with me? *lo pikir org inodnesia di sini cuma bisa jd TKW? heeeeeiii!!! u can see me!!!
dia: *cuma diam doang*
dan selama bible discuss dia seolah mau ngerendahin gue dgn tatapanya dan dgn dia traslatein bahasa mandari ke inggris dia (kayanya) ngerasa hebat bgd yah? gue nd Sarah udah ga respect begitu dia bersikap kaya gitu.
nd u know. what they doing to me. ITS so DIFFERENT WHEN THEY DO WITH MY ANOTHER FREN like Sarah nd Naomi. They serve Sarah nd Naomi good but not for me! OK! GUE PIKIR YAUDLAH, gapapa.. gue juga ga mau ngomong sama mereka koq! cuma mau tau ajah sampe mana sih pengetahuan mereka ttg alkitab dan hidup!! dengerin mereka ajah, mau nyangga juga udah MALES gue. gue nd Sarah cuma bisa balikin pertanyaan yg mereka tanyaain ajah about discuss hari ini. *thanx Sarah u r my best room mates nd mates ever, u still always know what i felt*
semalam pun terjadi juga koq.. gue ga dianggep lagi. sebenernya udah biasa gue ga dianggep disini. dan gue juga udah mulai cuek sama semua ini. tapi entah kenapa sejak semalam koq rasanya ga ADL yah buat gue yang notabene org INDOENSIA!! emang ada yang salah yah qlo gue INDOENSIAN? gue makan BABI! gue CHRISTIAN! dan gue CELEBRATE CHRISMAST!
HEIIIII!! gels lets open ur mind nd see how beutifull d'difference in this world. u guys not in primary school again, rite? plis open ur mind nd see anything with wisely nd still used ur knowledge!! i dont know how to explain to u if u didn't understand english nd me not understand ur languages. plis make it easy! not all of indonesian pep are moslem nd not eat pork too... whats wrong with me when i get pork in my meal? whats wrong when i pray with my way without did wudhu first?? hei!! believes me im indonesian, im christian nd im ete pork too like u guys!
its so painful guys:/ even i know has already JESUS feel this situation a long time ago before i felt it now.
now i know what'S JESUS feels before.
nd i n=know (maybe) this not be pain like JESUS feel before.
i know what JESUS feel its more than what i feel know.
LORD, now i know whats happened nd what U feel long time ago, maybe UR experience more than what i got now. i just wanna say thanx if u gave me this for my faith in URS be increases. thanx still protect me to lead me away from sins. thanx for wise nd honestly feel U gave me before so i still feel OK! when another not be what i want, thanx alot for UR grace which protect me second by second, experience by experience. i still LOVE U more than anything in this world. now i know LORD. IGNORED FELL, HUMILIATED FEEL by my "family"
thanx to always teach me nd kept me in UR holy hand.
thanx for them who made my faith to be strong tahn before. thanx for met them to, so now i know if difference people has different think too even they still believe in U. LOVE U much nd more my JESUS LORD. Praise u in the higher!!!
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